designs are for the bold, style for the dead.

so, maybe i finally have a little crush on someone. so, maybe i'm just like a sister to him. it's okay. i'm still hurting over your heartbreak.

veins frozen around your eyes,

who was i kidding? that i could actually grab happiness and hold it in my hand forever? it always gets away...always.

trampling over death by death.

i went to camp this week.

guess who accepted the call to overseas missions?

i did...

guess who's TERRIFIED of planes and is really shy?

i am.

but, i gotta do it.

www.facebook.com/crossingscamps

my forever roams in your hands.

you triggered me.

you put the gun in my hand and took off the safety, you put the pills in my mouth, you tied the rope around my tree.

you triggered me.

sunless nightmares.

i don't wanna grow up, i wanna be a toys r' us kid!

theres more to the world than earth.

maybe i can get through this...

im in love.

your smile invades my depression.

why do you expect this out of me? you know i hurt on a daily basis, dad. and you push buttons. you push unnessecary buttons that you know hurt me. i'm just trying to be...alive.

is that too hard to get?

at the horizon line is where the angels sleep.

apparently im too fat and too lazy to do anything. apparently all i want to do is eat, sleep, and get on the computer.

SO SORRY, dad. SO SORRY i'm just trying to not waste away in misery. SO SORRY for not being the perfect child. SO SORRY for trying to live instead of trying to kill myself again. SO SORRY im not allowed out after dark, SO SORRY i prefer to be alone.

im so fucking sorry, okay?

im holding my breath.

mason: how did you handle mufasa's death?

me: MUFASA'S DEAD?! D":

mufasa, he lives in me.

late night snacking.

i could seriously go for some taco bell right now.

its not like i think about you constantly,

i've been in bed. all day. crying.

and its all your fault.

your smile invades my soul.

but, damn, does it feel good for just a little bit.
but, oh, j.k. rowling - you are heaven sent.

a love like this will never truly die.

i fucking miss you.

saw your eyes today in a memory painted in the sky.

i fell asleep last night crying. fell asleep grasping for your arms, and searching for air to creep my lungs.

i fell asleep last night ALONE. again. even though my sister was right on the other side of me. i fell asleep missing you.

god, do i miss you.

the light can only go so far until it creates shadows.

i am nothing.

i am worthless.

i am hurting.

i am worry.

i am sick.

i am a murderer.

i am depression.

i am fire.

i am consuming.

i am crying.

i am screaming.

help.

swallow the sun.

hey smile, go away.

my parents find you annoying.

is it so bad that, for once, im TRULY happy?

and that no one wants to hang around me because its an annoyance?

feel the heat dig through your bone.

im addicted to the following:

family force five.

family force five.

family force five.

family force five.

family force five.

OH, and

chocolate.

my life is wasting, while your eyes are fading.

hello, smile.
i missed you. <3

swirling and spinning and looking all over.

trying to find the right quote to describe how i miss you,

is like trying to find the happy things when everyone and everything is dead.

unhealthy glances.

cuz i swear,
my world is falling apart.
and i can't save it,
so,
i'm just going to help destroy it.

you look like a sunset to me,

"forever, right?"

"i wouldn't have it any other way. =]"

bull.

grab the past by the hand and scream until it leaves.

im a senior now.
i dont want to grow up.
not yet.
excuse me, life?
could you please just...
slow down?

i'm not ready for this yet.

wake up.

“If you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you, its yours forever. If it doesn’t, then it was never meant to be.”

what if i was REALLY able to let go and not beg for them back with no reply?

i'm clinging on the slight hope that you will come back.

oh mind, just leave me here alone with myself. i dont know where your taking me and i dont like the road along. just go by yourself. i'll wait here until you come back.