screaming memories

you can't stop it.

your body is rigid.

your muscles scream at every bone and tendon telling you to move.

you shake, and shake.

you lose your mind.

there is nothing to hold onto,

nothing to keep you from losing your sanity.

your mind is wrapped around nothing,

nothing but the world colliding in towards you.

forever never happened?

i miss the way we use to laugh.

i miss our insider jokes, "bocaj"

i miss your cheesiness.

i miss laughing at you and with you.

i miss confiding in you.

i miss being yours.

i miss our simple conversations.

i miss... you.

shadows are lost;

my heart hurts. it feels like its been grinded into sand then shoved into the ocean. my heart has been turned into dust and is forever roaming in the ocean. i'm drowning in the depths of despair. and there is no line at the horizon.